It’s been a while, and things have been rough. This isn’t meant to be an update post or even as much of an apology post as to why this blog has been inactive, even after Selgowiros has drawn this kick’in banner for me.
I’ve been in a winter of life, since about half way through the summer of last year. It has caused me to be less religious in nature but I’ve still managed to administrate the Gaulchat discord server and the Touta throughout it.
I’ve said before that Belenos is a god of health, but I’ve always felt like this ties more into mental health. Today I’ve started a new medication that will help me focus and ground myself, so this post could be a result of that, a placebo as this is only lower dose and the first I take (and therefore not active in my system), or something else.
Please keep an open mind regarding the following, as it is just my UPG and not intended as scripture.
Belenos is life, fire, and water. He grows and subsides throughout the year, as life springs, grows, flourishes, and falls in the winter. As life ebbs and flows, so do the tides, and the flames grow and falls to embers.
The balance of this life energy is equilibrium between Belenos’ aspect of fire over water. Too much fire, life withers, too much water, we drown and freeze.
Where I live, winters are extreme, summers are as much so. Winter tides tear and rip at the coast, the outdoors a dead eeriness broken up by primal forces of wind, snow and hail. The summer screams cicadas and invasive beetles that tear and eat at native trees, killing them from the inside.
Here, the energy of Belenos rises and falls not with the sun but with the changing of seasons. But also the seasons of our life. The human experience is ups and downs, springs, summers, winters, and falls. Sometimes they coincide with the changing of the external seasons, sometimes not.
Sometimes I think I turned to Belenos as a replacement of the Xitian god, a higher force that loves you and brings you good things. But Belenos is not like that, in order for life to exist there must be unlife. Belenos can’t always be present. Periods of decay before every renewal. An unchanging state is not life, a continuous forward momentum leads only to entropy, and for new life and growth Belenos needs to step back and allow things to wither and die.
One of my favored examples of this is the fire-mediated serotiny is present in several species of conifer trees. The older trees of a forest are partially dead, their branches are suffocating undergrowth below. Life energy cannot exist here in abundance. The trees are tinderbox, a single spark sets them off. The forest erupts, blazes like a beacon, much like the bonfires lit for Belenos, pulling Him in. The ashes left behind are more than just ruins of the old forest, but fertilizer for a new one. The seeds of the conifers are freed by the flame’s heat, and thus new growth, a new forest, and a new cycle begins.
The winters of life can end gradually, a slow warming. Or the dead growth and be burned away. Either way, Life must leave you before it can fill you.
“When we reach our lowest point, we are open to the greatest change”
A quote from the animated show, “The Legend of Korra”.
If Belenos steps back when stagnation happens, it’s a sign that you’re due for a period of regrowth. But it’s up for you to decide if you want to wait out the winter, or burn open your fresh potential.
While Belenos might not be the catalyst or cause for the progressive change in your life, He’ll be there from the first moment onwards. If it’s a catalyst you’re looking for, I’ve long suspected Belenos working alongside Taranis in the Sky Father’s eternal struggle against entropy. We all have serpent-limbed giants to slay, so might as well ask the expert.
Special thanks to Dastan for your greetings. This might not fit your own UPG, but you helped inspire me again. Braton Tei from one Belhound to another.